Jun. 10, 2003 - 12:49 p.m.
I have completely disconnected from my moorings and I am floating adrift on tides that are unfamiliar to me. I have decided to submit to the winds of fate temporarily, and pray that my destination will have a positive outcome in my life.
I am tired of fighting all the time. I am tired of holding up my end of this eternal weight. I am tired of hearing my sisters and brothers cry out. I am tired of encouraging them to hold on.
So I will try another tactic. I won't give up, but I will give in. Can you understand the difference?
I need to remember that life isn't all work, and politics can be ignored. I have to focus on the lives I can touch and not the ones out of my reach. I have to allow nature it's course for awhile and be more subtle in my interference. I need to laugh again.
The desire that has been kindled anew in my soul is to let go completely and allow someone else to take the reins for awhile. I look at my kittens curled up contentedly on the couch, and daily the conviction grows that they are far more intelligent than me.
Will you just let me curl up on your lap and take a quick cat nap? We can play when I wake up.
