Dec. 15, 2003 - 5:11 p.m.
It takes effort to be a social creature. And I'm driven to make my life more effortless these days.
I've somehow shrugged off this ridiculous notion of obligation I've carried around for years. I'm tired of preaching to a deaf congregation, holding on to relationships that only exist through my constant supervision. I'm letting these so called friends slide into acquaintence status.
Surprisingly, I don't even feel any remorse. (Well, considering who is writing this, maybe it's not too surprising.)
I guess I have been far more sentimental in my past, then I'd like to admit. I've been holding on to friendships and relationships that are really nothing more than a fond memory. They will always be a fond memory, but my time and effort are better spent cultivating the few individuals who actually give a shit - those people who want to spend time and effort on me.
I think sometimes we waste too much time on our past and forget to enjoy the present. Life is change, and we have to keep moving forward.
