Jun. 08, 2004 - 12:19 a.m.
Well, well, well! I finally got in to add an entry.
If you were concerned by my long absense, blame it on the tile guys. Renovating a house is a lot like work, and isn't nearly as fun as they show on those nifty home improvement shows.
I miss being online, hooked into a global community, able to have some sort of communication with the world at large. It's not like there is so much meaningful communication online, but rather that there is just so much of the inane social niceties, small talk. It may sound shallow or trite, but I think a human being needs a certain amount of this in their day just so they can get out of their own head for a bit. A vacation from your mind, so to speak.
In my line of work, there is so much non verbal communication, subtle body signals, and quiet sound meant to soothe. I have to concentrate on my client and his/her needs, and the only voice I hear is my internal monologue, rather focused on a specific person. Outside of my treatment room, I try to keep the conversation focused on work, and far away from the water cooler gossip which is the source of most of the major problems at my workplace. I swear those women are pirranhas when it comes to gossip.
And at home, the only other adult on the premises has had his fill of chit chat by the time he finally returns from work, and is quite content with his nap and a measure of quiet time or "kid time".
I didn't realize how starved I was for a simple conversation till we went out the other night. We went to this private club with lots of fascinating eye candy and horizontal sports. I spent most of the night curled up on an overstuffed couch, making conversation with my clothes on.
Don't get me wrong, I had my bit of fun and frolic as well, but instead of staying glued to the clothing optional entertainment the entire night or sizing up potential team mates for a little action, I was quite content to just soak up the atmosphere, and refresh myself with a little adult conversation.
I'm looking forward to my birthday party. It will be wonderful to be surrounded by my friends. So manyof them are just starting familes at this time of their life, it is difficult to find time to see them or even chat with them anymore.
Contemplation time is over. The summer is here, and I am breaking out of my cocoon to be a social butterfly once again.
